Rant 1

Here is to a new year and new me!  This is probably my 600th time of trying to become a better version of myself on the inside and outside.  I am trying hard not to focus on the failing part of that statement and push on to some wins.  I am staring up at a 50lb weight loss which I put on through the last 3 years of upheaval in my life.  Yeah, things always seem to pile on when you are going through it, namely the pounds.  We started the year with a workout on day one!   That win competed with a strep throat and a sprained ankle.  I cannot even start with the amount of illness my house has suffered.  I was really starting think I was losing my mind.  Goals! I have goals, namely, to wake up early every day to do something productive, meal prep, workout on the regular and keep an organized home.  I obviously have each of these goals broken down into smaller doable chunks.  

The working out I already am doing but it needs improvement.  Yesterday I meal prepped for a week of healthy foods. The meal prep was hard to say the least.  It was a complete mess.  My back was hurting, ingredients were everywhere, I had to refocus several times.  I cut corners by not measure anything except with my eyeballs and hand.  I have small hands so that will work in my favor!

As I am writing this it is 5:52 am, which is another small win because I was so depressed about feeling sick and everyone else constantly being sick; I was not getting out of bed until I absolutely had to putting me behind and feeling even worse.  

It is time for me to get the kids up and plan for the day.  I had such a fear to start this journey because my mind is already prepping me to fail.  I finally said screw it and got out in front of it.  Thanks for reading my rant!