Rant 3

I am struggling to get out of bed in the mornings.  I am giving into my laziness and waking up in such a bad mood.  This morning I decided I was going to church but when I was supposed to get up for it I was not going to follow through.  My husband made me get up and I was so pissed.  I am glad he did it but I was miserable.  How can I change this?  I think I will do some research on it.  

Church was good! I am really glad I went.  They are starting a series which I think I like.  It gives me something to look forward to.  

I did something kind of weird which I will categorize as a win.  I meal prepped and it felt really good to do.  I took some steps out to make it a bit easier but next weeks meals are mediterannean power bowl, turkey wraps or tacos or bowl, overnight oats, smoothies, lots of fruit, almonds, and veggie sticks with hummus....yummus!

Tomorrow is hell day at Burn and I am already dreading it.  I also am volunteering for an afterschool thing with James and feel exhausted just thinking about it.  Omgosh, where is my motivation, happiness?  I feel so resentful, sad and just tired.  I am getting better everyday.  I am normalizing from getting off of my meds.